loving art
when the person you love makes something, makes art, do you love it because it's good art that speaks to you, or do you love it because the person you love made it ?
i used to think my love would be a fan of my art and creativity forever-er, at least for a long time lol . but over time it seemed like his interest in my art was fading . and i remember he said he felt like he wasn't the target audience for my art, even though i really wanted him to be, wanted him to stay a fan of my work . but why tho ?
i guess it's only fair for me to want the person i love to love what i make, to hype me up or give me input on what i could do better . if he made art of some kind, i would find something to like inside it and give feedback when it's wanted ..at the same time, i guess if my love's art wasn't really hitting me the same way it might hit other ppl who see it, i wouldn't act up my appreciation for it yk ? i would be honest on how much i love whatever he made, but yes it'd be a little biased bc he made it . art isn't like cooking where you can just flat out say if a dish tastes great or awful LOL
trying to make this positive, how to see this in a positive light hmm ...we're all making stuff regardless, n that alone is something to cheer about lol . creating something at all and wanting to share it w the person you love has to be one of those universal feelings right ?
i'm sure there's ppl out there who have that urge but past experiences make them less willing to be vulnerable about their art . sharing is a vulnerable act, of course i want the person i'm sharing it with to like it or at least understand it . he's never said he didn't enjoy a video i made at least LOL, but maybe he was just being nice or was deep in love ha