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im gunna look attractive to someone and someone else might say i need to eat more . someone else might tell me im skinny goals n someone else might say i'm too flat . a person could see me as the new 'ballet model', slim figure, another person could ignore me jus bc i dont have enough cushion . what would i feel the most comfortable in, on a planet that fluctuates what the beauty standard is every 5-10 yrs ?
do i want to gain weight so that ppl will never tell me i need to eat more ? surely if i was 140 or above, they'd stop, they might even politely recommend a diet for me to go on jus to shave off a couple pounds if i got closer to 160 lol . it sounds stupid out loud, but i want to gain weight so i can look like a mermaid, like even more of an ethereal being ig, so i can look like who i see in my head ..i'm thankful that my body fits my soul-it's missing some elements but i think i've looked the same and stayed around the same weight n measurements for decades bc that's what my body is comfortable with right now . maybe i'm not that much of a shapeshifter like i thought hmm
maybe i'm so focused on getting curves and a bigger ass bc of the guy i'm currently after, or the guys i'll probably be after in the future if things don't work out w the guy i love . they would ideally want someone who has some cake . or alot of cake, idk . i feel like ppl say they want alot but then they get it and don't know what to do w it . and i remember one old friend of mine saying the bigger the ass, the more he thought about how do they make sure they wipe properly, that was hilarious . pros and cons to everything, to every body type lolol
ahh, i'm sure i'll fill out as i get older, i got that sagittarius in there on sum stallion energy lolol . my body looks great regardless <33 sorry for even doubting or feeling insecure about my looks . just bc i'm not going to be everyone's type doesn't mean i'm not attractive . one of my friends has me in his phone as aphrodite ffs, and he mainly sees me in my work clothes so i don't even get to use my outfits as a lil attractive booster LOL but he still saw the beauty in me !! like wake up silly !! u are attractive !! <333