next video (cuz when even is the new moon)
oof it's dec 1, so i guess it's a good thing that i got this download of an idea while i was getting ready to take a shower lol . i'm going to make a voice recording and either put a drawing timelapse in the bg + STIX being expressive OR just STIX being expressive-probably the first one tho ?? going to write down my talking points/things i want to address in it so i wont forget it . if you're seeing this post, that means the video is already up, so you can watch it and see what i meant by each point lolol . they all go back to the topic of we need to be more picky about what we're consuming, mainly in terms of what we watch on youtube but it could be applied to alot of things . the download came right before i finished this video about AI content farms . after i got out the shower and watched it, i was basically hearing the same concerns/thoughts out of my head coming out of my computer screen from some random ppl on the internet, pretty crazy, we're getting more and more connected telepathically <3
points:
it's not too long before the new moon, need to talk about more clutter so i can feel comfortable making my art again
if you're a family member watching this, or someone who isn't on the side of youtube that's being affected by youtube slop, i'd highly encourage you to click off this video-it's not going to be for you/probably won't understand what i'm talking about, no need to clock into your shift at the spiry factory today lol
now, i agree with all the videos i've seen so far talking about youtube slop and what's the difference between cash grab videos and what are videos that have passion behind it
we need to be looking and searching for more videos with passion behind it, it's going to be harder to find the authenticity and humanity in the sea of fake/half assed stuff, but it won't be impossible
we gotta up our standards for what we're comfortable watching on youtube . if it feels like my brain is breaking from watching it or that i'm just wasting my time/not having fun, maybe it's not the best thing to be watching
other people outside of the space of youtube that's affected by slop are actually enjoying the platform and feel good after watching a video, or at least DONT feel worse lol
ppl gotta start seeing the stuff pumped out with no consideration for the viewer's time or intelligence and focused on making a quick buck as just that . it's ok to follow a template for a video-it's how we were taught to write essays and papers in school right ? but at some point, when you lack authenticity, it's just hollow
putting myself on blast by showing who i'm subscribed to on youtube lol TAKE A SHOT EVERY TIME I SAY SOMEONE YOU KNOW/TAKE TWO IF YOU'RE SUBBED TO THEM TOO LMAOOOO - i didn't add this point bc it took too long LOL, but i'll turn it into a separate video in the future for sure~
sometimes i want a simple video, sometimes i want a video to make me think or feel something !!!!!
maybe i just never grew up from being an internet kid, maybe the slop really is just for the younger audience, and i mean i came out ok growing up on the web i guess-like i'm not dumb or something ..will these kids be ok tho ? will they find their way out of the noise like i did, and find ways to feel again ?
i want to stop looking at these kinds of videos, the ones that are 'xyz' situation is crazy/other adjective, the hours long videos that don't seem to talk about much of anything or have information that i can't use in the real world or talk about with other people without sounding chronically online, i want to stop . after i put out this video, i want to start weening off these videos and watching/searching for videos on youtube that make me feel something or teach me something or motivate me to doing stuff towards my art and life goals . no more mindless consuming (im not adding this to the video but) i feel like i lost my boyfriend because i'm so stuck in consuming content instead of making art . he doesn't think i have a fire lit under me to do the things i say i do and that makes me so angry . and when something makes you angry it's probably bc something in there is true . so maybe i really don't have as much ambition as i should for the kinds of goals that i want to achieve . maybe i really am half assing my own art and creations and it makes me angry bc someone else notices it before i did, before i could fix it . i can still fix it though ..that's why i'm working on this right now instead of watching a video about the mr beast drama . i will prove everyone and anyone who doubts me wrong; i will make everyone who believes in me proud, i will make myself proud, i will make the life that i want to live happen for me
this could somehow tie into how ppl are so quick to being mean or hateful or dismissive on the internet frfr but i feel like that's a whole separate video/topic idea . stop being mean and dismissive to ppl who are trying to be sincere and authentic with you
closing out notes: i've made videos for 12/13 of the new moons and 11/12 of the full moons this year (last full moon of the year is dec 15 or some date around that time, still got 1 new moon to go). so that means i made 22 new/full moon videos, 33 videos all year on my channel (sometimes i would upload on random dates and not for the moon cycles lol) my 100th video will be a QnA/tattoo tour, ask for questions from my audience, after that i want 2025 videos to go even better than this year's vids . i want to give myself more time to get them done and not rush things, i want to come up with and talk about topics that i have passion towards . i want you guys to enjoy the videos i make and the time you spend here, leave my channel feeling better or at least feeling something from my art-i want to connect with others through my art and creations
this was all the notes i looked at while working on the new moon video ! i hope whoever sees it enjoys it, much love <333